A Pause From Muddy Paws

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Having light travertine floors with the wolfies is truly Sisyphean.  Of course in Greek mythology Sisyphus was condemned by the Gods to push an immense boulder up a hill, only to watch it roll back down; repeating this action for eternity.  Futile labor is a hideous punishment.  In our defense the floors were like that when we bought our house.  In fact our bedrooms came with oatmeal colored carpets (eek!) and thankfully after several years we had them replaced with “wood”.  It is a constant battle, as their paws are huge and they cannot help tracking in dirt and mud when they come back inside.  I have attempted to wipe their feet before they come in (picture attempting to wrangle excited small horses) and it has just gotten me knocked over and subsequently French kissed.  I’m not quite sure which is the most traumatic.  I have tried dunking their feet in a bucket of water to rinse off the dirt.  (So picture the first scenario but just add water which now I must clean as well because it, too has been toppled over in their haste to come inside).  I have even gone so far as to put socks on them but to no avail.  Then I got this mat thinking I was so clever.  (That should have been my first clue.)  It is big and lives in our laundry room placed right where they go in and out the most.  Oh the brilliance!  The microfibers and whatever else revolutionary and miraculous was going to catch all that dust, dirt and mud right when they reentered the house.  What I had not counted on is that their stride is so large they pretty much miss the mat in its entirety.  The British Labour politician Arthur Henderson once said:

“Therefore, let us not despair, but instead, survey the position, consider carefully the action we must take, and then address ourselves to our common task in a mood of sober resolution and quiet confidence, without haste and without pause.”

I have tried not to despair, I have surveyed the position, I have considered carefully the actions I must take, and I have attempted valiantly to address this almost Herculean task with the aforementioned sober resolution and quiet confidence.  Now I believe I am just going to sit back and take a pause from muddy paws.

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Let Us Pray

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Last week was the first time back to chapel for my little one and her classmates.  Everyone was in their chapel dress and, after watching them reverently and quietly walk in, I decided to stay instead of just dropping her off for school.  I found myself thinking it was the right way to start the day, and my spirit was refreshed just by sitting with the familiar feel of a wooden pew underneath me.  The sight of lit white candles in front of me added to the brightness of the early morning sun illuminating the beautiful stained glass.  Above me a large Celtic cross was suspended from the ceiling in the center of the altar.  I had unwittingly become peacefully present in this place of worship; first with myself, then with my surroundings, and then with God.  Maris’ teacher proceeded to go over church etiquette and explained we never put our feet on the kneelers.  I cannot tell you how many times in our own parish I have seen grown men slam them up lazily with their feet or watch people irreverently rest their dirty shoes on them.  Worthy of any seminary graduate, my little one’s teacher began showing them the basics of how to construct a prayer.  Of course I believe God hears our prayers regardless but I have always thought it was good to pray with mindful intention.  Feeling a bit like a school child again myself, I shall attempt to convey what she said and pray I have it correct.  She explained we put our hands together for several reasons.  First, our thumb is pointing toward our hearts.  We should begin with praise in our heart for God.  Second, our pointer finger may be used for confession.  I thought that was interesting, given that in almost every culture around the world that particular finger has been used to accuse others.  This serves to remind us to focus on our own sins and shortcomings instead of pointing to those outside ourselves.  Third, she said our center finger, the longest, should be used in gratitude for everything God has done for us.  How lovely; the longest part of prayer is to be dedicated to thanksgiving.  Fourth, our ring finger, is also the weakest.  I knew that to be true from taking karate.  This finger may be used as intercession:  our prayers for those in need, with the acknowledgement that we cannot do without God’s help.  Last, our pinky, the littlest finger, serves to represent the petitions we pray for ourselves; a humble reminder that we should place the needs of others before our own.  In Matthew 22:37 Jesus said:

“Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.”

Our clasped hands in total represent meditation; that we are listening for God.  And now, with our palms pressed together in front of our hearts, let us pray.

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Hello Gecko

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I uncovered this pretty little gal while watering the other day.  She was hanging out with my friend Rocky the toad.  I think that must be prime real estate where they are.  Judging by Google images I’m guessing this is a Mediterranean house gecko.  I find it interesting in Latin they’re called “Moon Lizards” since they come out in the evening.  They’re beneficial and eat insects.  They are not considered an invasive species due to their habits, small size, and because they do not really threaten the populations of native animals.  Their eyes have elliptical pupils and they have no lids.  I think she is a pretty little thing with her spots and striped tail.  I am also pretty sure we have another variant roaming around that appear nearly translucent and are much shorter.  I rescue them a lot when I open our door to the pond at night to feed the koi and they accidentally scamper in.  The cats just sit around waiting to pounce while my little one shrieks “DON’T KILL IT!!!” (as if I ever would).  Wow they’re fast!  I’m proud of this picture because I was actually able to get one that wasn’t blurry.  The American astronomer Carl Sagan once said:

“For small creatures such as we the vastness is bearable only through love.”

How vast their little world of river rocks by my fountain must be.  This one clearly knew me, probably because she sees me speaking with Rocky just about every day.  She paused a long time sort of studying me as I was her and I almost got to pat her.  For now I shall just remain content with saying, “Hello, Gecko.”

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Asleep In The Nursery

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There are few things I enjoy more than strolling through a nursery; a plant nursery that is.  Even when I had a condo I still could plant in containers on my balcony.  Since I’ve been blessed with a house planting in the ground (and in much bigger containers) has been a real thrill.  Sometimes I get it right and sometimes I fail abysmally.  Even when I carefully look at the placement and amount of sun it is not a guarantee.  I dislike yanking up live flowers for the next season and I try to invest in plants that are year round.  Once a year this particular nursery has a 20% off sale and I wanted to hit it for the addition of some “permanent” plants.  Between a couple of hours spent running around at the park, the heat, and the sun my little one crashed right on the flower cart.  The sweet cashier put a piece of cardboard under her head so she’d have something smooth to rest on instead of the hard grooves in the metal cart.  Then she moved her in front of a giant fan that was in the shade.  Texas in September is hot y’all.  I thanked her for her thoughtfulness and she said she remembered what it was like when her kids were little.  I have always felt the same as American actress Rebecca Romijn who said:

“I was never a girl who dreamed about what her wedding day would be like, but I’ve always dreamed about decorating my baby’s nursery.”

Having an only child who is now almost five I never thought I would be able to say this again:  my baby fell asleep in the nursery. ❤️

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Drawing Straws

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Drawing straws is a selection method used by a group to choose one member who must perform a task no one else will volunteer for.  In our house it’s more like rock, paper, scissors.  For instance, who has to let the wolfies out in the middle of the night?  Burk.  But who has to disarm the house?  Me.  Who loads the dishes into the dishwasher?  Burk.  Who cooks the meals?  Me.  Who mostly takes out the trash?  Burk.  Who has to pick up the disgusting hair ball the cat just cast up?  Me.  Always me.  Who feeds the cats?  Maris.  Who sets the table?  Maris.  As she gets older she is taking on more responsibility, some with relish and some with a soupçon of sassy.  The later is NOT tolerated.  When I was a kid my mother had a sign in the kitchen that read, “If Mama ain’t happy, ain’t nobody happy.”  Truer, more prophetic words were never spoken.  I think my two beloveds are JUST now starting to figure that out.  I wish I still had that sign.  Retired United States Navy admiral Michael Mullen is quoted as having said, “Don’t try to run your life through a single straw.  Someone, some event, will cut it off.”  I am thankful I have not tried to run my life through a single straw.  I was happy with myself before I ever got married.  I have always had my passion for animals, my love of music, my interest in history, my enjoyment in writing, and my faith in Christ.  All of the aforementioned have helped me deal with the deaths of my parents.  I still feel alone; I still feel sad, but I am thankful I have my husband and my child now to call family.  I have my four-legged babies, too.  I may like organizing things, but it sure is nice to have a little help.  As for who gets to clean up the pile of poop on the floor?  I’m all for drawing straws.

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The Greatest Treasure In The World

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I started singing solos in church when I was about four and music has always been an integral part of my life.  The German monk and composer Martin Luther once said:

“Next to the Word of God, the noble art of music is the greatest treasure in the world.”

Now my little one has just discovered that all the tunes I’ve played for her in the car the past couple of years are on her iPad thanks to family sharing.  They are an eclectic conglomeration of songs I love.  She used to say, “Mama, play Lubby Dubby” for the band Loverboy’s greatest hits.  She’s heard my favorite girl band Heart as well as “hair band” songs like Guns N’ Roses’ “Sweet Child O’ Mine” and FireHouse’s “Love of a Lifetime.”  I’ve heard her trying to get the words down to John Legend’s “All of Me” and in this picture my Marian child was listening to “Let It Be.”  What I had not counted on was her uncovering songs like Ted Nugent’s “Cat Scratch Fever” and 50 Cent’s “Candy Shop.”  Absolutely horrified, I told her the first was about naughty kitties that liked to scratch the sofa.  The second she just took at face value.  So now I will be reviewing her playlist before I have anymore uncomfortable, creative explaining to do.  I want her to know “The Rose” and I want her to hear my favorite singers:  Bette Midler, Julie Andrews, and Linda Ronstadt.  I want her to learn my favorite musical songs like, “Summertime”, “Edelweiss”, and yes, ABBA’s top hits.  I especially want her to know the legendary Nat “King” Cole.  She loves all my favorites, from Journey songs to Latin Gregorian “church music.”  Almost more than anything, I want my little one to have a lifelong pursuit of the greatest treasure in the world.

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Friends In Low Places

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I thought of Garth Brooks’ famous song when I saw this picture I’d snapped of my sweet friend Rocky as he was coming out to say hello.  I do not often listen to country music, but my mother instilled in me an appreciation for Willie Nelson, and I have always loved anything by the group Alabama.  My favorite music is mariachi and I never even took Spanish.  I do not care for Linda Ronstadt’s music in English but in my opinion she is the greatest mariachi singer of all time, in a genre dominated by men.  For as long as I can remember I have carried a deep adoration for sacred liturgical music:  particularly Biebl’s “Ave Maria”, Grieg’s “Ave Maris Stella”, Cesar Franck’s “Panis Angelicus”, and Allegri’s “Miserere Mei, Deus” just to name a few.  I used to sing quite a bit but stopped in college.  Now I just sing alone for pleasure.  Of course I’ve been singing to my little one since the moment I found out I was carrying her.  But I digress.  Every morning when I fill our fountains outside my little friend here pops up for a visit.  I look forward to my time with him as I realize our friendship is on his terms.  He blends in so well with the river rocks I know it is his choice as to whether or not he wishes to see me.  I love patting his head and now he lets me rub his belly.  I always say hello and we have a quiet time of reflection while I slowly pet his textured skin.  When I hold him I can feel his heart beating in my hands and I am humbled by his trust.  My daddy always told me to be kind to everyone on the ladder of life; that I might see some of those same people on the way down.  American author and clergyman Henry Van Dyke once said, “A friend is what the heart needs all the time.”  With seemingly so many striving to climb superficial social ladders, I have learned to truly appreciate the value of friends in low places.

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Frasier Crane

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Meet Frasier.  I think you can surmise what type of bird he is.  I never watched “Cheers” but I absolutely ADORED “Frasier”.  I even have a Cafe Nervosa mug from the coffee house they frequented.  It is wild that his brother’s name was Niles and my mother’s name was Nila.  And no, I did not name my beloved Maris after the first wife Niles had but no one never saw.  My mother’s maiden name was Maris.  Kelsey Grammer’s television portrayal of the role of Dr. Frasier Crane spanned an impressive two decades.  The only show that came close for me was Michael Landon playing Charles Ingalls on “Little House on the Prairie”, which I loved throughout my early childhood — and still do.  I always find it ironic whenever I hear Hollywood actors eschewing television for their own children.  I have also uncovered a closeted sort of snobbery against those who admit to loving or even watching TV now.  We don’t look at much, but what we do we make count.  My whole family used to gather around the big wooden floor console to see “Little House on the Prairie” and as an adult I loved watching “Frasier” with my mother.  I read somewhere once that people with the highest intellect comprised their most number of viewers.  I get a silent giggle out of saying, “This is Frasier” when people go out to see our koi pond and they discover him.  If they’re smart, they get it.  I always appreciate it when they do.  And now I think I shall close and pour myself a glass of red wine, ending with my favorite quote from the show:  “As I always say … why go Merlot when you can take a Cab?” ~ Frasier Crane

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The CATechism

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Some years ago I bought this prie Dieu.  It lives between the glass French doors that look to our pond outside and my piano inside.  It felt like the right place for it.  I am incredibly chagrined that the cats seem to use it more than I.  Exhibit A:  this picture.  In French “prie Dieu” literally means to pray to God.  It is a type of prayer desk/kneeler intended for private devotional use but may also be found in churches.  They have a couple in our Parish’s lovely old chapel and I have used them at times after lighting a candle and praying in quiet reflection surrounded by stained glass.  Our church bulletin used to read, “Worshiping in the beauty of holiness” and I still use that phrase.  Often the Rosary is recited.  As I do not have it memorized, it takes me quite a while to get through.  I use an iPhone app so if I’m at church I fear people think I’m on Facebook or something.  The prie Dieu did not appear to have received its present name until the early 17th century.  I fell in love with the little chapel in Marie Antoinette’s Petit Trianon, where I saw hers and was deeply moved.  Often people assume I am Roman Catholic.  I am actually Episcopalian (or Whiskeypalian, as I often joke).  Of course one does not need a prayer bench to pray; we can pray to God any time, any place, and any where.  I just hoped it would inspire me to pray more often and with more reverence and devotion.  1 Thessalonians 5:17 says, “Pray without ceasing.”  I strive to do so.  Now if I could just get the gatos off my kneeler.  We all know they sit quietly a lot with their eyes closed … they must be contemplating the Catechism.

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A Hair Embarrassed

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My mother was hilarious and had a great vocabulary.  One phrase she used a lot was “a hair.”  It’s a Texas thing I suppose meaning a tiny bit.  For example, she’d often ask me to “raise the air a hair” which meant to turn up the air conditioning a little.  She’d also say “fire” for heat.  If you’re envisioning a heavy southern accent of some sort she did not have one.  Her speech was delicate and refined.  Just when I thought I knew all her vernacular she’d come up with something else.  She was so quiet very few people knew how witty she really was.  My mama was a treasure to me, my daddy, my husband, and our daughter.  Seeing this small pile of hair (yes, you read that right; this was nothing compared with the rest of it) I thought of Mama and smiled inwardly.  We had to take the wolfies in for their annual wellness check-up yesterday and our girl Cheyenne (who favors the husky side more in looks but the wolf side more in mannerisms) was blowing her coat — big time.  The poor thing doesn’t know what to do.  It should have been gone by now but because they’re indoors her body has kept it.  (We have it cold for them.)  In the wild they naturally shed their coats during the spring for summer and then grow them back again in autumn for winter.  Right now you can literally just touch her and chunks of hair come flying off.  The groomer was booked so the sweet vet techs decided to try and get a little of her undercoat out just with their hands.  It was horrifying and literally looked like some type of small animal had just been murdered in the waiting area.  I do not exaggerate when I tell you it was absolutely EVERYWHERE.  The wolfies do not have an odor of any sort so there were just huge piles of soft, beautiful, fluffy hair.  Some people actually collect it and stuff pillows with it, make plush animals out of it, etc.  The bracelet I cherish most was made out of my first wolf hybrid’s hair.  It looks like round beads in varying shades of gray.  I am so thankful for the person who was kind and thoughtful enough to make that for me.  I am reminded of the anonymous quote, “No outfit is complete without a little dog hair.”  Everyone’s scrubs at the vet’s — from the Dr. to the techs to the receptionist — were very, VERY complete.  And I was more than a hair embarrassed.

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